I’ve hit a wall and now feel out of my depth and am really unsure where to take my work. I have been trying to absorb lots of different ideas, have been pushing myself to experiment using my left hand to paint and to produce work without looking. I have tried to work slowly, in layers but at the end of it I now question whether I have achieved anything at all.
I got the impression from my last tutorial that I am perhaps still working in a habitual way. I thought I had been engaged, so I am disappointed in myself that I haven’t noticed this, an now feel I am floundering somewhat.
So I need to go back and look at what I’ve done and try and make some sense of what I have learnt during these experiments and contemplate what I might take forward.
I also need to combine this with the following pointers from my tutor:-
- make sure habit doesn’t take over and stop me observing/looking
- need to keep considering ‘what am I doing and why am I doing it?’. Need to constantly try and take that forward.
- palette – think about what my palette of choice might be and what it might express/communicate thinking about my subject matter. Might help with the juxtaposition of the visceral and the tightening
- Explore visceral marks in combination with tightening of the line
- Need to stop and look at my experiments, make decisions about what I want to re-work and develop
- Use spoiling techniques – e.g. Dumas and the scratching out/working under the eyes/mouths. Could this work for me?
- Eyes – how can I focus in on them and treat them in my work?
- How can I show my dis-ease with my materials to add to the energy of the subject tmatter?
- I need to try and use my dislike of the unknown/unfinished and bring that to my work.
What has worked then?
These are probably the only images that I see something in that I might contemplate further. They show me moving away from my normal presentation of images and the use of my left hand in some of them has shifted the way I have put down the information my eye is seeing. Now to try and combine the elements of layering, of working at a slower pace, of putting marks down that continue the work I started using my left hand and trying to transfer it to the way I work with my right.